Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Tremor

"Y'know," she says, "you're always using terms like 'It just dawned on me' and 'it suddenly struck me'. It's as though you're constantly having these little epiphanies."
She's right. I do, and I am. It's how I work. Here's another:

It dawns on me, at 5 in the morning, entirely unrelated to how much whiskey, vodka and peach schnapps I've just quietly consumed, how lucky I am to have met her. To have found her. That I am no intransigent leopard, but a man with a massive capacity for mistakes, complicated feelings, confusion and, yes, even cruelty. And a much greater capacity for goodness and recovery from those mistakes. That I've found someone who balances me out, knows who I am and loves me for all that entails. And doesn't think that entails anything too arduous. Who loves words even more than I do, and flicks and flips them with glee. Someone who breathes kindness and sincerity.

It struck me forcibly, not now but at the moment I met her, that she is quite the thing.

14 comment(s):

Sarah Gostrangely said...

Gorgeous.

Love this kind of shit.

C'est La Craic said...

Did you ever read something and think Fuck, it's like the writer read my mind and found a way to express the mess in my head in sensible, coherent words. I did...

red said...

try to hold on to that feeling for as long as possible.

the dublinista said...

What a sweet post.

Andrew said...

Sarah - Thanks. Do you mean corny shit?

CLC - Cheers, that's a fine compliment to be paid. Unless of course you're actually referring to something you read somewhere else and are simply telling me about it here...

Red - I will.

Dublinista - Ta. Kinda like toffee popcorn, I like to think.

Rosie said...

sap.

narocroc said...

Toffee popcorn is fantastic stuff altogether.

B said...

The Disney Channel are suing you for plagiarism :P

Tessa said...

Bind her to your bosom with hoops of steel ... unless you think a restraining order might result! Seriously, when you find someone who really gets you, it's time to stop messing and hang on tight.

Darren said...

Sap!

Andrew said...

Rosie - You're right, she's not that great.

narocroc - Particularly when at the cinema.

B - You shouldn't have included the :P, it takes all the acidity out of your comment. You're dead right, I mean if Hallmark wrote blog posts...

Tessa - Hoops of steel sound a little painful and restrictive but yes, your point is very much taken.

Darren - See above.
Except no, I'll take that from just about anyone but you - the master of the over-sentimental blog post.

B said...

I wasn't meaning to leave any "acidity" in the comment though... I use smilies solely to remove it.

She Likes It Loud said...

Nodding and sighing at "arduous". I'm sneaking away from that now. So glad it's ease and epiphanies for you guys, but if this turns into a constant sapfest, I will reach across the sea and pinch your eyelids. I can withstand about three eyelash batting posts a month. Just sayin'. =)

pinkjellybaby said...

It's nice to know that guys think like this sometimes.... mine is silent on this point mostly and I often wonder if a guys mind is ever capable of thoughts like these